Saturday, October 31, 2009

Rocky Horror Picture Show is tonight! I'm super cereal essssited!

I think the best part of the day (other than the show and getting ready for it, of course) is going to be the fact that I'm going to have to go out in public with curlers in my hair! Hahahahaha!!! Man, is that going to be fun. I hope I don't end up in an email of Worst Dressed at Walmart! That would be awful!

I can't contain my excitement!

Oh, last night, I was able to go to the last home football game of the season! I got to see so many of my friends! I am so glad I was able to go! I really needed to see Kaitlyn; the poor girl has made it through the entire season basically friendless and I feel so badly for her! She said she felt better since she got to vent to me and everything, so hopefully, my pep talk can carry her for the last two weeks of the season.

Thursday, October 29, 2009


Rocky Horror Picture Show this weekend. I'm so excited.

I'm going as Dr. Frank-N-Furter. It's hilarious since I'm not a dude going in drag, but I do a mean impression.

That antici----pation is killing me.

I have a lot of "on call" shifts at work this week. I don't know what's up with that. It's a bit frustrating, I'd rather know if I work or not. This maybe maybe not thing doesn't seem so great now. Maybe it won't be so bad though.

Anyway, There will be tons of pictures taken on Saturday. They will be hilarious, I'm sure of it.

I'm feeling really good today. It's so nice!

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Dentist and To Watch List

For whatever reason I'm unusually tired. I could so take a nap right now, and I just might do that.

Today was okay. I went to the dentist. I hate the dentist, but this wasn't so bad. It was over quickly, so that made me happy.

I have a letter to write. I don't know if I want to write it or not, but I know that I have to. It has to be done at some point.

On another note, I have a "To Watch" List. It's like a To-Do list, but it's a list of movies I want to watch.

Nightmare Before Christmas (I've seen it before, but it's been a long time)
The Butterfly Effect 2
The Princess Bride
The Lion King (Again, seen it, but it's been a long time)
The Shining

That's it so far, I'm sure it will get longer at some point.

Monday, October 26, 2009


Today was my second day of work, and I feel like I failed. My drawer came up $13.80 short.
I basically worked for two free hours. -_-

Way. To. Go.

If this happens too many more times, I could get fired. I don't want that! I like this job!

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Pretty Fun Day

I had a pretty fun weekend with Jordan. Yesterday, we went to see Astro Boy. It was cute. That's about all I want to say about it. Afterwards, we went into Hot Topic so I could get him this Angry Beavers shirt. You remember that cartoon, right? It was on Nick a few years ago, you know, when the good shows were on. I'll refresh your memory with a photo. Yeah, you remember now.

Today, we painted pumpkins. I'll have a picture up at a later time. It was super fun. He also whooped my butt at Mario Kart. It was a great time! I love that boy!

I work tomorrow 11-5, so that should be fun!

Friday, October 23, 2009


Wish my shoulder didn't hurt. I woke up this morning in excrushiating agony. It hurts from mid-way up my neck down my arm. Felt like I was going to throw up when I woke this morning.

Jordan comes tomorrow, and that's exciting.

That feeling is subsiding...slowly but surely. That's an up, but I have been fighting with my parents more often. Maybe it's because I don't really see anyone but them, or it's just because I'm tired of being cooped up all the time.

Hopefully, this doesn't last forever.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Retail Therapy

Things were better today. I guess.

Is anyone else experiencing goofy weather? It was 50 degrees last week and today, 70. Hello? What's up with that. My sinuses are raging, and I'm not quite all that happy about it.

Anyway, I bought The Princess Bride today. I haven't seen it before so I'm pumped to watch! It will give me something better to do than sleep all day. Also, my mom bought me a faux-fur lined hoodie. OMG! It's sooo soft. I also got new moccasins to replace the ones Ivy chewed through. That dog should be glad she's cute, or she'd be a...well, it wouldn't be good.

That is all.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Tommy Hilfiger Continued

Work was fantastic. I learned how to fold, work the register, and watched some lame videos. The girls I worked with were so adorable and sweet!

I really think I'm going to enjoy my time at Tommy!

Tommy Hilfiger

Today is my first day! I'll let you know how it goes.

At the moment, I'm trying to figure out what I'm going to wear. I'm so used to having a uniform to wear! Decisions, decisions!

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

What I Did For Love--A Chorus Line

Love is never gone.
As we travel on,
Love's what we'll remember.
Kiss today goodbye,
And point me t'ward tomorrow.
We did what we had to do.
Won't forget, can't regret
What I did for

Monday, October 19, 2009

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Where are the "best of times?"

This feeling is consuming my soul. Am I hitting rock bottom again? Can I shake this off? Is this the way my life is supposed to be? Does God want me to live in this unbreakable box of rigid emotion? Did I kill babies in a past life? Is this why I constantly feel this angst-y feeling; a feelings where my soul literally feels as though it's being sucked out of my soul by a Dementor and that my heart is ripping in to two separate pieces?

Seriously, haven't I had more than my share of shit to deal with? Didn't I have most of my fill between the ages of 6 and 12? What the hell, God? I'm starting to feel like Job over here. I mean, when Job had all of his stuff taken from him You gave it back. I'm not getting anything back! All I need is a freaking boil on my butt and he and I would be in the same damn situation! How is that fair?!

Why is it that some people don't have as much tragedy as others? That's a bit unfair, doncha' think? Some of us get to take on more than our share of the load while others get to sit pretty. You know what I'm talking about. Those people who's biggest problems have been the death of a family member and a bad experience with a boyfriend. Some of us get to just have shitty times. I don't think that's right.

You're not picking favorites, are You? If you are, that's pretty messed up. But, you did love that one disciple the most, didn't you? That was your Son, but you're the Almighty Three in One. OOOO!

I'm starting to feel like I'm losing You again. I felt this way five years ago, and You know what happened. I tore down my relationship with you because I was so pissed. You know, that's why people get pissed. Because they feel like they're getting more than their share of heartache while others live on Easy Street until the day that they die. I finally rebuilt that foundation with You. It took five years. Five! And I'm starting to feel it crumble again. I don't want that.

How can You expect me to be okay that I've been run out of school for a condition I can't control and that I have to live in a town where I know no one, and I can't get out of the house and just take a walk because "it's not safe." Really? Is that fair?

Did I kill babies in a past life? Are you punishing me? Are you?!

I've invested too much time trying to rebuild my relationship with You and trying to not stay mad at You, I have. I really have. But... Well, I don't want to feel like I've wasted my time. It was one of the biggest challenges in my life. You know that. So why does it feel like you're trying to tear my foundation down? Why does it feel like you're testing me?

Joan of Arcadia

I've been watching this all day. I have the second season on DVD, and have been avoiding the television tragedies that occur on weekends.

Macy, I think you would really like this. Rent the first season if you can.

Right now, I'm watching Joan audition for a musical about Zombie love. It's bliss.

That stupid empty feeling is seeping in again. I can just feel my heart empty out a little more every minute. Depression has got to be like, THE hardest thing to deal with ever. I think I'll be dealing with it for the rest of my life; trying to medicate myself in to oblivion or a state of numbness so that I can live without feeling at all. When my meds are functioning correctly, as in, I'm not feeling depressed or showing symptoms thereof, I'm numb. I don't think it matters what medication I'm taking (I've tried so many) it's the "norm" for me.


Friday, October 16, 2009

Wanda Sykes

Is making me smile. : )

I need the laughs. I'm so bored, and apparently the best way to beat boredom is to sleep. So, I've been sleeping a lot lately.

Now that I have this job at Tommy Hilfiger, hopefully, I won't be as bored.

I'm trying to get some of my friends to come and visit me before I start work. Many of them are on Fall Break now, so I figure why not. I don't know anyone down here. I'm hoping that Jessie and maybe Sarah could come and visit.

I don't have anything to say for once.

Thursday, October 15, 2009


I got the job at Tommy Hilfiger! Fifty percent discount here I come!

Tonight at Italian Class, we were shown a video of Northern Italy. Mama mia! is it absolutely beautiful. See for yourselves:

I know the quality is horrible, but boy, is it hard to even find pictures of these places.


I woke up this morning with a sandpaper-lined throat on the left side. (Why not both sides, I'm not sure.) My tonsil feels like it's going to explode as does my head and nose. I can breath through my nose, so I can't complain too much, but I still hate this less than 100% feeling.

It's officially (since it's past midnight) been a week since my interview at Tommy Hilfiger and I've heard nothing. I have an interview tomorrow at Bath and Body works. I really want this job at Tommy, but if B&B get back to me first, I may have to take the job. *Sigh*

I really want something to go my way right now. It seems like everything is just falling apart.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009


So I haven't updated in a few days because I've been away from the computer. I spent some time with Rachel back in New Ox and Sunday she came down here to MD so we could spend some more time with one another.

We saw Godspell on Sunday. Of course it was fabulous! It's one of my favorites. Yesterday, we basically spent four hours at the mall. I'm not kidding. It was fantastic.

Thursday, October 8, 2009


Applied to several places in the past few days. Charlotte Russe, Gap, Bath and Body Works, and Tommy Hilfiger. I have an interview tomorrow at 4:30 with T.H. I'm hoping that one goes through, but I wouldn't mind working at Charlotte Russe either.

I'm actually just hoping that I get a job for the holidays. I need something to do other than sit around the house all day.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009


*Note, I do not take credit for these images. I simply found them on the internet, liked them and wanted to share them with others.


I've been so tired lately. It's like I can't get enough sleep. I went to bed at 9:30 last night, woke up at 5:30, and went back to bed an hour later and slept until 10 when Dad woke me up.

Eleven and a half hours and I'm still tired.

What is up?

I don't think it's mono because my body doesn't ache, I'm just so sleepy.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

: ]

My boy is coming soon. I can't wait to see him. He makes me so happy. :)

I'm watching Fairly Odd Parents at the moment, and I've had a lot of sleep. Things are good.

That is all.

Monday, October 5, 2009

Good Day

I need someone to explain to me why you would need to make a pre-appointment with a doctor's office. What I mean is that my "appointment" today was really with an intake nurse who then schedules a real appointment with the doctor. Not only is that frustrating, it's kind of stupid.

Anyway, that's what I was supposed to do today. After spending 10 minutes going back and forth on the same block of N. Walnut Street this morning, we finally found the doctor's office. They really need to move the sign onto the street where you can actually see it or at least raise it so that it's not hiding behind a pack of SUVs. It would even be helpful if the sheet with the directions mailed to me from the office said, "Next to St. Mary's Catholic School." That is the least they can do. The damn office is off the road hidden from view.

I got inside, and the intake nurse had to leave on a family emergency so she has to call me tomorrow to schedule an appointment. Please, someone, answer this for me, If this can be done on a phone, why waste time doing it in person? Really? Is the drive necessary?

Anyway. Other than that, today was a better day. Anything could be better than the weekend, even a nuclear holocaust would be better than my weekend.

But I've enjoyed my do-nothing day. It's like most of my days, I must admit. I've kind of stopped keeping up on any of my subjects except theatre since I'm auditing that. Like what motivation do I have? My day was rather calm and I like it when it's like that. I had a very nice nap, and I got to watch Sonny With A Chance before dinner so I'm all smiles.

Jordan said he may come down tomorrow to see me, and I'm super excited! I miss him! : ) I love that boy.

And Macy, I do understand what you're feeling, and I'm so happy for you.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Dear Weekend,

You were the worst ever. All three days of my glorious weekend were ruined. I hate you. I'm so mad that I can't even verbalize what I need to say in order to get out my frustration. Don't think you're getting off so easily, when I can form the words, my wrath shall cometh.


A pissed off Megan

P.S. Another weekend like this, and there is going to be a weekend homicide.

Friday, October 2, 2009


"Fairy tales do not exist to tell children that dragons exist. Children already know that dragons exist. Fairy tales tell children that dragons can be killed."
--G. K. Chesterton

Children are remarkable for their intelligence and ardour, for their curiosity, their intolerance of shams, the clarity and ruthlessness of their vision.
- Aldous Huxley

Sophia: Why do blessings wear disguises? If I were a blessing, I'd run around naked.
--Golden Girls

Blanche: The Great Herring War?
Rose: Between the Lindstroms and the Johannsens.
Dorothy: Oh, THAT Great Herring War.
--Golden Girls

Rose: Sophia, why are you in such a bad mood?
Sophia: Excuse me Rose, but I haven't had sex in fifteen years and its starting to get on my nerves.
--Golden Girls

“Life is just one damned thing after another.”Elbert Hubbard

Meal Planning

I'm in charge of planning the menu this week for my family. We're having a lot of pasta!!

Beef Stir Fry
Spinach Lasagna
Turkey Wraps
Chicken Cattiatcoret

I can't think of the other one, but I know it's delicious!

Mmmm. Nom, nom, nom.

Thursday, October 1, 2009


Today was not a good day. My father is in a cranky mood all the time and it seems like it's because of me. I say something, he gets in a snit. And today my mother accused me of being his problem. Ever since he got this job here as the church pastor, he just seems to be in a shitty mood all the time. So, I just can't please any one and it's really getting old.

My mother is also giving me a "cerfew" of when I have to be up in the morning. WTH? She hates being woken in the morning if she doesn't have anything pressing to do. I don't have anything pressing to do! Why can't I sleep in?

At the moment, all I'm doing is getting nagged and bitched at. If only I was at school. If only I could be there. I wouldn't have to deal with this shit.

I'm so sick of this right now.