I'm not putting up with my "friends" making big deals about stupid shit on facebook. It's not worth it. You don't like my status updates, hide me. Don't bitch about it. So yeah, I removed you from my friends and blocked you. Don't accuse me of "trying to get attention" because of my status updates. I'll update them as frequently as I want.

Rambling

I'm inspired to write, but I can't think of anything which always leads me to ramblings. But I guess that's okay. I mean, the thoughts that go through my mind are just completely random anyway...

Right now I'm just really inspired in general. My heart is floating in my body, I'm happy. I'm so happy, in fact, I'm crying. I just read the most genuine post of my friend's blog. It was the most sincere, loving, amazing thing I've ever read in my entire life.

Katie is so...nice isn't powerful enough word, genuine, that's what I want to use, and her heart is made of pure gold. You read her words and her thoughts and it just hits you. The words come around, out of the computer screen, and wrap around you. They're uplifting. She knows herself so well. Her intentions are always good. And she can make me smile even on my worst days.

You know what else makes me smile? Glee. The finale is tomorrow, and I'm stoked. Right now, I've decided to just do what makes me happy. Selfish? Maybe so. But I think that doing things for yourself, being selfish in a sense, is okay. If you keep giving, soon, you'll have nothing left to give. Am I right?

I've just decided that right now, things are stressful, and I just want to do what is going to make me happy. Sleep all day? Okay. Indulge in chocolate? Absolutely. Stay at home and watch my shows? Fine. It's keeping me happy inside. Right now, that's what matters most to me.

Hilarious

News:

So, I finally got a response after much waiting, anxiety, and an email later.

Nothing is official, but I was told, "The news is good."

So, I guess that means I'm going back.

This disagreement with her is really getting under my skin. I've apologized over and over again. It's really getting me down. I don't want her to be mad at me, I want to start back at SU on the right foot not with us fighting.

Thinking about it makes me want to cry. I really wish she would talk to me.

Sorry, I was foolish

Yesterday, I think I made one of the biggest mistakes of my life. I had to judge something and draw conclusions from something of which I knew nothing. Way. To. Go. I was immature, stupid, and completely in the wrong. I don't have two cents to put in when I don't know what's going on. Now, I have my foot in my mouth.

And I'm sorry. I don't know how else to say it. If I could say it to your face, I would in a heart beat. But that's not the case. I've called you, sent you a text, etc. I don't know what else to do except leave you alone.

And that's really hard for me to do. I hate it when others are mad at me. I hate hurting other people's feelings especially when they're my friend. It makes me feel horrible.


Please, talk to me.

Christmas Time is Here!

And I'm finally stoked!

I did lots of Christmas shopping yesterday, and I'm almost done. :)

Now I just have to wrap and send a few of them.